Why I Went Back to OnlyFans—Even After It Broke Me

By Trinity Barnette

Let me just say this right off the bat: my first time on OnlyFans? I was 18, wide-eyed, and had no real idea what I was getting into. I had zero experience in the industry, and honestly, I was a little too optimistic for my own good. I didn’t fully understand what I was doing or what I was signing up for—mentally, emotionally, or professionally. And it showed.

But this time? I’m walking in with my eyes open.

I’ve grown. I’ve matured. I’ve built something real—from blogging to writing, to reflecting publicly and privately on everything I’ve been through. I’m not the same girl who was chasing fast cash with no plan. I’m the woman who’s reclaiming the narrative. Who knows what she’s doing. Who knows what she’s worth.

It Wasn’t Just About the Money

Yes, I went back to OnlyFans because I needed money—this world doesn’t move without it. But if you think that’s the only reason, you’re missing the point.

I went back because I needed to. I needed to prove something to myself. I needed to do it again—but this time with knowledge, with experience, with maturity. I needed to show myself that I could reclaim something that once broke me. That I could walk back into a space that once made me feel small… and not shrink this time.

Because the world—and men—aren’t so scary when you have boundaries, wisdom, and a strong grip on who you are.

This wasn’t a collapse. This was a comeback.

I Built My Platform Modeling—Why Not Profit From What I’m Good At?

Let’s be real: I’ve always done well using my beauty. And even though it can be frustrating to be reduced to looks, I’ve learned to flip that into power. If people want to focus on my genetics, fine—but I’m going to cash in on it while I build the rest of my empire.

I’m not doing this blindly. I’m doing this to fund my college education as a Criminal Justice major. I’m doing this to pay for my blog—the very platform where I’ve poured my thoughts, my advocacy, and my truth. I'm doing this to give myself the financial stability I need to keep growing.

Last time? I wasn’t smart with my funds. I made a lot and lost even more. I’ve regretted that for a long time. But now I get to rewrite that story. Now I get to prove that I am capable of making smart, intentional decisions—even in an industry that doesn’t make that easy.

I Don’t Need Everyone to Agree—But I Will Be Respected

This isn’t the safest job. I know that. It never was. And yes, I still believe sex work is dangerous and can be deeply problematic. I’ll never lie to myself or anyone else about that.

But that doesn’t mean it’s not the best job for me right now.

I’ve thought about this long and hard. I’ve had loyal fans asking me to return. I’ve weighed the risks, set my boundaries, and made a decision I can live with.

You don’t have to agree with it. That’s fine. But I make my own choices. I answer to no one. And I refuse to carry shame for surviving in the ways I know how.

This Is My Life’s Work—And I Get to Choose How It Unfolds

I’m not just writing a blog. I’m building a legacy. Every decision I make, every turn I take—whether it’s glamorous or gritty—is a piece of that.

I’m not here to please everyone. I’m here to live fully, love deeply, and write loudly. That’s my purpose. That’s my thrill. And I refuse to apologize for that.

So yes, I went back to OnlyFans.

But I didn’t go back broken.

I went back as the version of myself who finally knows what she’s doing—and who she’s doing it for.

Me.